It's no secret that I've been avoiding LJ a lot lately. Partly because I'm very busy and hardly even have time for myself, but also a little because I no longer feel as comfortable here. I wasn't sure why for a very long time. I mean, this happened a while ago when I had 150+ people added, but I only had seventy something, so I didn't think that was it.
But then someone I've known for years cut me today. I didn't have the slightest clue why. And when I thought about it, I really didn't care. And that's just it: like I've always said, I want my LJ to be filled with people who I actually care about and who care about me in return.
And so I did just that. I now have a list of forty five people (including some double journals and me) and I still feel it might be a bit too big. But I'm off to the right start. It's cosier and I feel much more comfortable sharing my thoughts.
If I deleted you, it's because we're not friends, we hardly know each other, we don't talk off LJ anymore, you have 200-300+ friends and I don't really see how I matter in that, you're not really active on here anymore, et cetera.
I feel much better having a smaller list. I even think that forty five is too much. XD. But I want to keep it this way for now and just see if I still feel overwhelmed in a week or so. At the point in my life where I am now, I want to make my LJ actual friends only (and people I can see becoming actual friends) and build up on it later, but still keep it small and limited to friends.
No hard feelings, guys. I wish you the best with your lives. <3. Thank you to all of you who have been good to me.
If I deleted you and you want to give it another try, regardless of when we last spoke, send me a message or something. Maybe we can get to know each other again somehow. :].
But for now, thank you all for understanding. If any of you who I've kept want to cut me, I also understand.
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